Today I visited with my sister. We talked about the old days and the things we can't explain. The house we were raised in still stands on her ranch. It was a log house with a 15 x 30 livingroom, and a large bright kitchen. It had one bedroom downstairs, and four upstairs. In the fall in the early days we would take a picnic to Horse Shoe Bend and spend the day loading the wood my dad cut. Once, I remember, my brother, Jim, was walking in the back of the pickup and stepped in the chocolate pie. I am sure we checked it over and ate it anyway. We would gather the pumpkin, corn, and squash for the winter. I remember how much I hated washing quart jars. They came in an endless stream at canning time. I would stand at the galvanized tub in the back yard it would seem for hours. My sisters spent plenty of time washing jars, too. I don't remember them complaining. In the long nights of winter my parents would take turns getting up to make sure the fire in the wood stove had plenty of fuel. I would take a brown bleach bottle filled with hot water and put that in my bed about an hour before bedtime. I thought it was heaven to climb into that warmed bed. Sometimes in the morning we would awake to a skift of snow on our beds, and there is nothing in the world like stepping out onto ice cold linoleum in the winter.
As warm and cozy as our parents tried to make this house there was 'something' there. We, the six of us, seldom agreed on anything, but I think we all agreed that the house we were raised in had a presence. Home alone in the evening I could hear the sound of footsteps coming down the stairs. They seemed to stop at the third step from the bottom...the one with the knot. Most, if not all of us, have seen someone smoking in the darkness under the eves. The red end of the cigarette would go bright when the smoker inhaled and dimmer on exhale. Brighter and dimmer in the darkness. I could smell the smoke. My sister has remodeled the smaller house across the pasture, and I understand they don't go to the home of our childhood except rarely, and never at night. We all grew and moved out into the world. Our parents have passed now.
When I take my soap to gun shows, and craft shows sometimes people tell me stories about their childhoods. Sometimes they begin by saying "My Grandmother burned my hide off with lye soap," and they move on, the memory still etched on their face. Other times they stop and talk about their memories of the old days. One woman from North Carolina told me about the Haints of her childhood. She spoke of swamp lights, and ex-convicts hiding in the church as they walked by in the darkness. I love to hear the stories.